yes i have given birth to a new baby boy, he is jaundiced kinda bad but it may be going away... ill write about it all later...
right now im getting frustrated and worrying because i havent been getting ANY sleep wahtsoever... i feel nauseous and am really close to throwing up... ive had some diarrhea, my legs have that feeling where i need to move them, and i was coughing earlier today, and had stuff stuck in my thoast, and have started to cough a little again now...
i dont know if there could be something wrong with me..
post partum depression or whatever is also making me very un happy....
i feel so nervous, maybe thats why im nauseous... i dont know, but i cant take it.
also my breasts are un believable engorged and it hurts so much, i dont know what to do. i have taken some ibuprofen, and had a cold compress on them, but it hurts.
im not breastfeeding so i want the milk to go away, but it leaks on is own, so i know its making more... ahhh
all in all, im very uncomfortable, im emotionally messed up, and im so worried about my body right now.
not getting sleep is making me worse.
my mother took the baby for the night becasue i got no sleep last night and i thought i d get some tonight. but nope.
and shes working tomorrow...
im kind of freaking out, i hope this passes soon and i feel better.
physically AND emotionally.
i want to be able to take care of my baby.


he was born august 9th, at 9:34 by the way.
ill write more later.
i just wanted to see if nayone had any ideas about anything... yeah...